Time for us to become the family we dream of...

So I woke up this morning at 7am like I have been for the past week. Mind you this is before Faith woke up this morning. So there was no crying coming from the baby monitor, yet I still woke up. By the time I made it up the stairs to make Faith bottle I could hear her start to wine. So I went to her room unswaddled her, changed her diaper, and put some pants on her, then gave her the bottle. As I was walking out of the room she was already closing her eyes while drinking her bottle. Ahhh... I thought now I can go back to sleep for a little. NOPE!! My body is up. No sleep for mommy. Also no naps for mommy in awhile. So I have a list of things I've been putting off for a while that I started on. Then I started thinking... If I have been putting this list of important things off, and putting off house work, what else have I been putting off?? Well I haven't been doing my best job as a person, mom, or Fiance. Which makes me feel crappy. Not what I want to feel like early in the morning. So from now on I'm not putting off things I know I need to do and want to do. I mean say I want to go on a vacation, yeah that has to be put off due to money, time, and child care issues. I want to do things like get our new condo in order, workout so I'm in shape for this Color Run, and Have fun with my life. 

I'm tired of caring about things that don't matter. I want to stop feeling depressed and live my life. I want to be the kind of mom that makes all the meals for the family, Plays with the kids till they fall asleep on the floor, learns how to do crafts so my home is part of me. I want to be the kind of Fiance that talks about our problems rather than runs from them or shuts down. I want to be the kind of person that is healthy and smart.



I can not wait to start. I know that all of this takes time. 24 hours is never long enough to finish this all. From now on each day will be filled with happiness and love. I need to remember that sure things will not go as planed. That people will walk into my life as well as walk out. That kids are kids and sometimes ( most the time) things you plan with them will not go the way you thought. I also need to remember that Love can never be strong enough.